Whatz keeping me busy!

Hmmm the list goes long!

1) DAUGHTY GIRL/Little Princess! She starts the day with a puke… phew… gaseous baby… But I feel really pity for her… as she goes RED when she throws up! She gets kind of choked and suffocated… Though it scares me, I still keep up the spirits as only and ONLY me have to handle the situation… As of now… I (even the doctor) find absolutely NO remedy… to this problem… She should be fine as she grows… *praying* It’s that GAS grr that’s troubling her! As a result… I wash loads of bed spreads, towels, baby clothes, and a few EXTRA clothes of mine too! So the laundry work is HUGE! The good part is that… I always find myself clean as I keep changing my clothes throughout the day! (Hmmm humor is the only thing that keeps me going! )
2) SUNNY BOY/Little Prince! He is sweet for sure… But… he pukes too :-( But he is a LOT better when compared to my little princess! He has a very poor digestive system and he is VERY sensitive to certain issues. He hates flies…! If at all he happens to see a fly while he is having his food, he is SURE to throw up! Well not his fault not at all his fault… It’s all in my head… something called as fate! That @#$%^ fly… (it wasn’t a swear word… trust me) comes just to say that… ‘Madam you have no place in hell… hence I am here to screw the hell out of you!’ And I keep guarding ALL the doors of this house… The moment someone opens the door, I PULL them inside and SHUT the door IMMEDIATELY! (If their hands or NOSE gets jammed… in betwen, then it’s their fault… and NOT mine!!! As they know that it’s the routine that I do… (not jamming… DUH! But shutting the door) The second problem is that IF he has his dinner LATE. But that's quite RARE! As I SEE to that… I FEED HIM (Yo I literally FEED his food inside his mouth… hmmm I have enough time you see) And sometimes even if he eats EARLY he pukes in bed (till date he has never done that on my head... God knows if that's in store as well... Well anything can happen in my case) after about 4 to 5 hours… (I told you that I have NO place in hell) There I go picking him and running to the wash room to WASH him… and then CHANGE him and then CHANGE THE BED SPREAD… and then set things right and then hit my sack… (by that time my little princess wakes up howling (oopz I can’t say that to my baby… okie sweetly purring err crying) So… there I go changing her diaper… filling her stomach and then making her burp (which is the toughest part of all) and carefully checking if she is not throwing up… and then THUD I hit the sack praying that I would be able to (hopefully) sleep at least for a few more hours before that GOD DAMN morning ALARM rings!
3) Cooking! Well don’t raise your SINGLE eyebrow… err may be both the eyebrows!!! Thinking… ‘who doesn’t do that?’ Well… you have to cook when your baby is SCREAMING her head OFF! Or when she coughs (THAT cough… that indicates ‘throwing up’) Or when she is flinging all those things around… Or when she vroooooooooooom drives her vehicle… oopz her walker straight to the stove to fidget with those tiny yet dangerous buttons of that poor ‘Indesit’ stove that I took care of all these years! Or when she is SLEEPING (not that sound sleep… ‘THAT’ cat nap?!? You know?? Cat nap?? Oh yo exactly) that cat nap!!!) You have to cook tip toeing in the kitchen as if you are walking on a bed of flowers…. Take at least 2 minutes to place that damn spoon carefully in its place without making that ‘cling’ sound! You follow all this and then tell me that… 'COOKING IS EASY!'
4) Bathing! Yo of course bathing MYSELF! These days, I day dream of going for LONG baths! I sometimes feel why the hell (oh this ‘hell’ again… me and hell have some long term relationship I guess) that I am BIG… If I was like a miniature doll… err whatever… it would save sometime bathing… provided I feel clean as well… God knows when AGAIN I would get a chance for that long luxury bath! *sigh*
5) And after TWO AND A HALF YEARS…. I am in a plan to hit India… this month! (BHA the very thought freaks me out) Al though my hubby had visited SEVERAL times during these years, me never preferred visiting due to VARIOUS personal reasons. Now, I can’t escape… so many things to do that I am forced to DO and forced to GO… I only hope that things go well! GOD ALONE KNOWS…!!! So… this India trip keeps me busy as well… Packing this and that… taking down lists…. Buying stuffs… standing in a place and day dreaming if things would go well & blah blah blah! So… some of the time in a day, goes like this as well.
6) Then, sometime for playing peek-a-boo with my princess… talking all those baby talks… making her giggle… encouraging her to utter some words… encouraging her to play with her toys and stuff… Listening to my son’s stories about his school and friends… Clearing his DOUBTS phew… regarding so many WORLDLY things… & blah blah blah.
7) And last… but not the least… Checking MAILS, Asking ‘howdyz’ to a few online… Browsing about anything and everything… that I wanna know. Sometimes blankly sitting in front of the pc... looking at the MONITOR for nothing… and listening to some songs and day dreaming! And off late this Face Book’s ‘Little Green Patch’ Man Oh Man… it is sooooooo addictive… that I keep gardening and gardening… watering the plants, cleaning the weeds, chasing the animals from the patch.... blah blah and more blah (oh I comprehend that… I still am a child in my heart of hearts…) Well… such small things motivate me to smile, take things light, move on with heart breaks and at last to live with a hope that there should be some light somewhere!

Signing off!

Bubbly…!

It’s her life!

The sparkle in her eyes…

The pearly white smiles…

The tread with a grace…

A passionate embrace…

The fairness of her skin…

Has nothing to win…

As she lives...a life-threatening sin!

~Bubbly~

Just a day in a year... for love!

There he walks with a faint little smile…

Holding a gift that he feels has a class and style!

He carefully carries those sweet smelling roses…

And awkwardly stands in expelling poses!

He pretends love with a peck on her cheek…

While she shivers to exhale all pale & weak!

Failing to see the feelings in her eyes…

He passes the gift with a heart filled with lies!

Although her thoughts run tousled in lots…

It’s her life that she lives… in tangled knots…!

~Bubbly~

Elite Penguin Force…(erm?!?)

Oh my lil Prince took almost all my 24 hours today! (And it hasn’t ended yet… cuz he hasn’t slept yet…)

In the morning… before going to school.

Prince: Mumma mummaaaaaa

Me: SHHHHHHHH talk slowly… don’t wake up Jia

Prince: Oh okie mumma

After few mins… MUMMAAAA IS IT GETTING LATE? WHAT’S THE TIME??

Me: God… I just told you to talk softly… and see the clock urself… Don’t you know what time you should step out of the house?

Prince: Oh I know mumma I know mumma… I am sorry…

When it was about time for him to leave…

Prince: I love you mummaaaa… *hugs and kisses*

Me: Love you too darling… *hugs and kisses *

Prince: Take care of Jia okie??

Me: Sure baby!!!

In the afternoon after school….

Just when I open the door for him…

Prince: hehehehe mumma a funny thing happened today….

Me: listening attentively

Prince: Mumma… we all went to the erm erm au audi erm au-ditory… today…

Me: What??

Prince: All of us in the class went to the auditory today and played some games around the yellow circle.

Me: Its auditorium….


Prince: Aaan ya mumma auditorium… we played some games and every one got out… but Abishek and Harini stood like a statue… So my PT teacher asked me to make them laugh! See mumma see…. I shook my bummy like this… (he bent forward and shook his bum like a donald duck.)

Me: giggling

Prince: hehe mumma… is that funny… Abishek lost the game and laughed so loud… But Harini didn’t laugh mumma… All the others were laughing including Jessica mumma. And miss said that it was very funny… she also said…’I know you can make people laugh and that is why I called you pranav.’ The whole class laughed today mumma… and said that… oh it was very funny! Am I good in making others laugh mumma??

Me: Oh of course baby… ure very funny!

Prince: giggles and jumps around in excitement.

Me: Now come on… remove ur uniform and throw them in the laundry bin and rush for ur bath… Don’t make a delay…

Prince: Still hopping and skipping.

Me: Running around in the kitchen and also picking whatever that Jia keeps throwing around.

Pranav: Mumma…. When are we going to Abudhabi… Is it tomorrow night??

Me: No… u’ll not be going to school tomorrow… we’re leaving today

Prince: Ah…. Mumma I am really cross.

Me: huh?

Prince: Ya mumma… I told Nikhil that I will tell him something tomorrow. I told him that I will ask you and let him know if you would let me go to his place tomorrow to take a look at his book collection.

Me: let it be a surprise for him… u tell him this Sunday…

Prince: yayy are we going to his place soon mumma?

Me: erm… ummm ah yes.

Pranav: thank you mumma…. And goes around hopping and skipping…

Me: Pranavvvvvvvv…. Go for your baaaaaaaaath.

(I sometimes recall my voice. My friends and anyone who talks to me always says that I have a very sweet voice and I sound like a kid…. *Sigh* after becoming a mother of two kids… its all gone… I only wish that I don’t sound like a man someday :( )

In the evening…

Prince: Mummaaaaa I am googling about Elite Penguin Force…

Me: Jaw dropped and all wide-eyed… now what did you say that ure doing??

Prince: Ya mumma…. I want to become a secret agent in the penguin club… and I want to join the Elite penguin force…

Me: peeping into his computer to see what he was browsing… Oh I was further more stunned when I saw the youtube playing… Oh you know youtube as well?????? I ask him…

Prince: Ya mumma I want to see the videos of how they complete the mission as a secret agent in the penguin club. Its given here in youtube. I am also googling about joining the Elite Penguin Force

Me: Ah what is this erm… what force is that?
Prince: Elite Penguin Force mummaaaa

Me: Oh whatever

Prince: Mumma… plz can I join the Elite Penguin Force?? I need to become a member… plz mumma…

Me: Pranav… I don’t think pappa would accept for that… cuz he may have to once again pay in dollars to make u a member there… which I am not sure if pappa would do… he might as well cancel your account in penguin club if you keep asking for more and more.

Prince: all upset… but mummaaaaaa…

Me: sorry Pranav… I cant ask pappa…

Later in the night…

Prince: (After googling) Mummaaaa please mumma can I plz join? I need to download some stuff as well…

Me: I don’t know… you ask pappa

Prince: But u said pappa wont ummm… (looks at me with a sad face)
Now his pappa joins the conversation…

Pappa: What’s that Pranav?

Prince: erm… ummm pappa… (and he just goes on blah blah blah about that erm… ya Elite penguin force)

Pappa: okie we’ll see tomorrow.

Prince: looks a bit satisfied.

Me: giggling within…as I know pappa wont.

Prince: Pappa… I think… erm… for a change today I’ll sleep with you pappa…

Me: fuming within… thinking… hmmm he thinks he is smart… baby you will soon be beside me.

Pappa: ummm okie.
And they both get into pappa’s exclusive room.

After about 10 minutes

Prince comes to see what his mumma is doing….

When mumma just opened the blogger thinking about the title of today’s blog
Prince: coyly walking around me with his barney toy…. Hehe mumma… let me put this barney in place okie?
Me: nodded my head and continued with my blog.

Prince: Mumma… where should I sleep mumma?

Me: Ur wish baby…

Prince: mumma… ill sleep in the computer room today…(computer room is the room where his study table is… his desktop is… and I was sitting there with this lappy of mine) I just wanna be beside you.

Me: giggling within…. But baby…. I cant carry you after you sleep…. You better go sleep in our usual place… (the next room where Prince, princess and me sleep)

Prince: but mumma…. I want you beside me….

Me: hehe thinking…. I know you baby…. And I carry my lappy to the next room.
Now… I am sitting in the dark… inbetween the two little angels and typing this blog….

Prince is snoring and the Princess woke up few mins ago to have her milk and she is sleeping now…

Hmmm… I have to catch up some sleep too….

Days run… but my heart is still a kid sitting on those kindergarten benches looking at those tall trees where different birds sit.

Ciao!

Jia’s Star Birthday!

It’s Jia’s (First) Star Birthday today! Back home we used to go to temples to worship on this day… Well it’s kind of asking God to bless us with a good year ahead. Yesterday, we informed some good hearts back home to visit the temple to do the rituals on behalf of us.

(The pink dress picture is the one that I clicked today... It's her new Birthday dress !)

Today, as I was arranging the wardrobe and gift items those that she had received on the day of her b’day party… I came across a few set of dresses, which I felt would become small for her within a month or so. I packed those dresses and also a doll that Jia received as a gift in a cover and handed it over to my better half to give it in the ‘Red Crescent’! From now on… I have planned to give new dresses or whatever I can… on the day of my kids’ b’day to the needy.

Years back, when I was in college, I never used to celebrate my birthdays. Instead, I used to visit the ‘home’ for women and spend the day with them, distributing food and clothes. It gave me immense pleasure… as I felt that I had people to share my feelings with. My mom was always busy with her office… and sister with her friends and dad was mostly abroad. My birthdays during my school days would just pass off like any other day. Well… such was my life and I don’t blame anyone for that! So, during college days, I preferred celebrating my birthdays in the orphanage! Ah those memories…

A conversation with my lil Prince today!

Prince: Mummaaa... *looking at Jia* Jia looks cute no mummaaa??!!

Me: Ah ya... she is cute!

Prince: Was I also cute like this when I was small?

Me: *smiling* You are always cute my baby!!!

Prince: *wide grin* thank you mumma!

Me: You're welcome baby *planted a kiss on his forehead*

Prince: Mumma… which God is your favorite God?

Me: hmmm I think I like all the Gods.

Prince: Ah me too mummaa… ummm but mummaaa…., there should be one favorite God??!!

Me: *thinking* hmmm well… may be Ganpathi…! Cuz he is small and cute like you… (And I kiss his small pot belly, as he was changing his clothes after bath! ) And so, mumma likes Ganpathi *smiling*

Prince: All saucer-eyed Oh me too mumma *he smiles* But mummaaa… I like Lord Shiva too!

Me: *smiling*

Prince: And mummaaa a terrible thing happened in school today!

Me: *worried what it could be*

Prince: I showed Lord Shiva’s photo to ‘Shaahid’ today… & ‘Shaahid’ said that Lord Shiva is a donkey!!! I felt sad mummaaaaa… I told him not to say that… but he was going on saying that.

Me: *fuming within* Ignore him baby… he is ignorant & has no culture… and if he repeats it again, u tell it to your teacher.

Prince: Ya mummaaa I wanted to do that… but Jayapra-TA (that is how he pronounces ‘tha’) stopped me fom doing so.

Me: The next time he teases, you tell it to ur teacher.

Prince: Okie mumma.

These are the times we feel bad about the way parents or other elders convey about other religion to their little ones! When are the elders going to learn???

I just hugged this lil Prince for 2 minutes… and like I said earlier, he inhaled my aroma and started snoring within the next couple of minutes. Hmmm it’s tough at times when I am in the midst of some kitchen chores. Yet… this is what I’ve been experiencing for the past 8yrs. Giving my aroma to him… so that he sleeps there innocently. And sometimes I feel happy that this lil Prince loves me so much. In fact I need that after a tough day… to forget my pains and also sorrows on those foul foul days.

Now I have my Princess on my lap, who has already gone into the la-la land as I keep typing this blog.

This blog may sound quite bland… but… today I feel a bit more tired than yesterday… yet came here as I don’t want to take anymore breaks.

So, there I go… hugging my pillow…

My baby steps in blogger!

Hello bloggers!

It’s of course my baby steps in blogger.com..al though, I have blogged a few elsewhere too. I had blogged my day today glee, blunders, anger, pains, embarrassments and disappointments and everything in a place which I safely deleted and zoom swallowed back once again within a fraction of a second. Well… no regrets… I don’t regret on things that I do without a second thought! After all, they were the things that were within me and the things that are still within me. Hence, I can bring them out once again, if I wish.

So, here I am once again… into the blog world… but, in a new place where I am still taking my initial steps. The almighty alone knows if I would take more steps or just be happy with my baby steps alone!

Ah coming to think of this place, I think I don’t know anyone here (or do I know?!?) As far as I feel that this place is Bobby safe *Wink* and as far as I want to vent whatever that comes… or precisely pops out of my brains or flows from my heart, knowing or not knowing anyone here doesn’t really matter!

A simple homemaker I am who runs on the tip of my toes (Ah I pity those toes that carry all this weight of mine…!) in the early hours of the morning to send my son to school… pack the lunch for my hubby and then feed my little one who clings on my night gown squeaking for attention while I concentrate on my little prince and better half!

To read and write blogs is a luxury to me!

As I keep cleaning those vessels, laundering those clothes, playing peek a boos with my little Princess, cooking that chicken biriyani for my little Prince who jumps in excitement saying, ‘Oh wow biriyaniiiii???’ (Oh I cook biriyani at least twice a week) I don’t know what excites him so much…about biriyani? hmmm he is very choosy you see… he is quite happy if I prepare it everyday. Of course I don’t mind preparing it everyday to keep him happy. But my 'vegetable lover' hubby would kick me out, if he sees Biriyani as his everyday meal in his lunchbox. (Gosh… I can’t risk my life! Yet I should see that I keep everyone happy… phew…!) So, in-between all these chores, my soul within me… smiles, laughs, giggles, grins, blushes, argues, fumes, cries, romances, fantasizes, dreams (anymore feelings left?!) and so much wishes to put all these feelings in a blog.

By the time I feed the children & also place food in the plate for my better half and then clean up the kitchen, check the clothes if they have dried, make my son and daughter sleep… who don’t sleep without the smell of me… (oh whether it’s my sweat smell or the fading deo smell… they simply WONT sleep without me there beside them. Even now, I am here sitting beside my son who just called me saying… ‘oh mumma will you please be with me?… I will sleep peacefully if you’re beside me’!!! and note… he is the boy who has been asking for a bunker cot and a separate room for himself for the past couple of years! Well… he has some big plans [may be…]to make me climb on those ladders with him to smell err sit or sleep beside him! My cousin who once saw this, gave me an idea…! He asked me to wear a shirt and walk under the sun to sweat and then put that shirt on the kids pillow… hmmm it didn’t sound very hygienic to me… and so I had to drop that idea… though the idea itself sounded good! )

Oopz I guess I am out of track… oh… what was I saying? Oh yeah… by the time I finish all these above mentioned emotional chores, (including rocking my little princess with a ‘sleepy tone’ lullaby…) It’s either 12 midnight or half past 12 and my bones & muscles curse me to hit the sack. There I go hugging my pillow with a hope that I would blog the next day! And also apply that night cream that has been lying there since long for me to open and at least take a peek at it!!!

*Sigh* after almost a year and a half of wishing and praying, here I am typing this blog sitting beside my little Prince giving him my aroma (hmmm may be he feels that it’s some narcotic hehe Well.. as far as he feels good about it, I am happy!) to make him sleep while my hubby is impatiently waiting outside this room walking up and down for me to grab that little princess of mine from his arms & to relieve him from his duties (well its only 9.57pm now... And I still have a long way to go!) so that he hits his sack peacefully in his own cozy and quiet room (oh can’t blame him…for that… He wakes up early to earn for our daily bread) while I get sandwiched between my two royal angels. (hey… I can’t sleep without the smell of these two angels… we have some serious smelling issues) So… here I conclude my baby step to take care of my further chores.

Oh scrolling up I see that the very first baby step of mine itself looks pretty LONG!!! Hmmm let’s see if I am going to take more steps or just take some rest here, blinking ‘what next?’